Dear Universe,

I am now a college student! home for fall break and everything. It's weird. It's really strange. I feel like I'm in a time warp. After everything I've seen and done and experienced? after being taken away from the context of anything familiar and having to practically rebuild my self concept after an existential panic whatever? After building myself an entirely new network of support? I'm back here. After all of it. I feel like everything's changed so much, yet it's all the same. I just see the world through a slightly different lens.

Blue hair
Fire Spinning
Hitchhiking
...
I feel like I have become so much more bad-ass since the beginning of school. But it's all costume.

I've realized a lot of what people do is just costume- you're really not that intimidating. You're really not that cool. It's like that guy my mom dated in college who she told me about- he played the fiddle and had a pet boa constrictor and rode a motorcycle, yet he was really a dull person himself. At some level I think we're all just scared little kids, trying to fit into these shoes that are way too big for us.

I've also realized that most people are incredibly nice, and willing to help you get where you want to go. All you really have to do is ask.